God...what You want me to do now? I'm weak...i can't hold on anymore...
why You should let this thing same as the pass happenned again.
I pray so hard, even though i find the counselor...
but why? This thing hurt me so much so much...
i don't know how to fix it...
so i choose the only possible way that can help me become more comfortable---lie.
God...i'm sorry...i'm very sad and disappointed now, please...have mercy on me.
I really don't want to hate or hurt anybody, especially my best friends.
I don't have that means.
I...i just hope that, something would be fine.

Heavenly God...just please...
please help me to become more stronger, and help me now.